As a russian guy, I’m still unconclusive what’s the reason behind that. Unlike Palestinian-Israeli conflict, this one seems to happen over nothing. Just one aging man’s sick ambitions that brought suffering to many families. I feel shame whenever I contact my ukrainian friends. For that fucking state used my representation to bring so much useless, senseless morbidity onto neighboring nation. It’s 2023, why would we even want that? With all fucking problems we have as a humankind, why fighting Ukraine for 9+ years is even on the table? It doesn’t make any sense. It’s insanity. And I don’t feel like I can ever compensate for that before I die. The damage we caused is too much for one’s lifetime. It should’ve never happened.
I feel right to feel these guilt and pain though. I’m actually pleased to expirience them. Having them means there’s something left to my humanity, something is still there, shining in my rotten corpse. The nerve response that is lacking in my many countrymen. A bell whose ring tells me I’m still human and I still have empathy. That signal isn’t pretty, yet it’s welcome in our trying times.
If I’m allowed to, I’d beg you to spend your sympathy towards me on my ukrainian homies. Years ago I had a gaming group that included persons from all ex-USSR. And I haven’t heard from ukraininan dudes and gals in a while. Guess, they could’ve left our VK network altogether since this war happened, and it’s right for them to do so because it’s shit, but I’m still worried if they are alright, if they got caught in this conflict. If you are a faithful person, please put a candle on my behalf for their safety in your church or mosque of choice. If you aren’t, just like me, well, you can listen to a story of Nestor Makhno, that one based ukrainian anarchist who kept the free state there for a while: https://youtu.be/dqD9VZuGBJw?si=sDs4sDYsMDX0fs4p He’s an image to respect, and to replicate, and a great piece of our history that kremlin bitches want to erase. Just knowing it, you deny them easy win (:
As a russian guy, I’m still unconclusive what’s the reason behind that. Unlike Palestinian-Israeli conflict, this one seems to happen over nothing. Just one aging man’s sick ambitions that brought suffering to many families. I feel shame whenever I contact my ukrainian friends. For that fucking state used my representation to bring so much useless, senseless morbidity onto neighboring nation. It’s 2023, why would we even want that? With all fucking problems we have as a humankind, why fighting Ukraine for 9+ years is even on the table? It doesn’t make any sense. It’s insanity. And I don’t feel like I can ever compensate for that before I die. The damage we caused is too much for one’s lifetime. It should’ve never happened.
I’m sorry and I hope you find peace. This guilt is not yours to hold, my friend.
Thanks, friend. These simple words lit up my day.
I feel right to feel these guilt and pain though. I’m actually pleased to expirience them. Having them means there’s something left to my humanity, something is still there, shining in my rotten corpse. The nerve response that is lacking in my many countrymen. A bell whose ring tells me I’m still human and I still have empathy. That signal isn’t pretty, yet it’s welcome in our trying times.
If I’m allowed to, I’d beg you to spend your sympathy towards me on my ukrainian homies. Years ago I had a gaming group that included persons from all ex-USSR. And I haven’t heard from ukraininan dudes and gals in a while. Guess, they could’ve left our VK network altogether since this war happened, and it’s right for them to do so because it’s shit, but I’m still worried if they are alright, if they got caught in this conflict. If you are a faithful person, please put a candle on my behalf for their safety in your church or mosque of choice. If you aren’t, just like me, well, you can listen to a story of Nestor Makhno, that one based ukrainian anarchist who kept the free state there for a while: https://youtu.be/dqD9VZuGBJw?si=sDs4sDYsMDX0fs4p He’s an image to respect, and to replicate, and a great piece of our history that kremlin bitches want to erase. Just knowing it, you deny them easy win (:
very well put. thanks.