Sometimes I actually look at people when they talk at <I mean> to me

(I will only realise what made me upset two weeks later)

As I’ve become more self aware, I’ve started to be open and honest about this. I’ve exited conversations with something like “I’ll be back in a bit. My social battery just emptied and I need a few minutes.”

It’s healthier than taking up smoking to just get away from the noise and go outside. But I’m convinced that’s half of the reason people smoke.

I think that sometimes I get overly talkative out of anxiety. Like I’m worried that I’m not perceived well so I try to maintain control over the situation, only to find that it isn’t working and then I just kind of give up and shut down. Dunno if that’s quite what they’re getting at though.