The solitude in my life kinda feels a bit less bearable today after being drained at work. Who’s up to chat?
Howdy, do you like chickens?
They’re cool. I remember I once binged a bunch of YouTube videos of chicken behavior just to see how they act. I’m especially fond of the barred coloring on some of them. It’s always caught my attention.
I also watched a bunch of videos of chickens! It wasn’t really to understand them (though I did learn a lot), but I had a friend who moved out to a different state (they’re back here now!) and they loved to send me videos of their chickens.
The worst things about chickens is their lifespan. It’s 10 if you’re real lucky, but most chickens get killed for meat long before that. Makes connecting with them hard.
I loved connecting with farm animals in my youth. It was one part of hanging out with my dad that I appreciate more as I get older. When I was about 8-9, we would go every weekend to my uncle’s farm to tend his cows while he was out of town. I used to name them, feed them, and keep a scrap book with all their pictures in them. They all had their personalities and looking back, I miss them after all the times we had. We also used to keep a seasonal garden, where we mostly grew tomatoes and squash (one year we tried experimenting with pumpkins). I always thought it was the closest I’ll get to seeing what my father saw taking care of sheep in rural Sicily.
Chayim to Stalin! Anything new in Florida to Cali?
I made dessert for some folks. It gives me purpose. What’s going on on your end?
Nothing much…
Me, I guess? What do you want to talk about?
First episode of my deer friend nokotan just dropped today, I intend to get around to watching it eventually.
I’m getting to be such a dinosaur with anime, lol. I haven’t watched anything new in years.
Yeah, that’s sorta relatable. I have a big long list (>400) of shows and movies that I’m chewing through, and at this rate I’m never getting to anime from this year.
I’d like to see more movies in the future. Maybe curate a small collection. I find myself with little time these days to do it with work dragging me out all the time. My mom is ending up finishing all the shows we start together because I’m too tired to sit down and watch them to the end with her. Well, at least she’s getting her enjoyment out of it.
I’m lucky enough to be in a situation where being productive and watching shows aren’t really in conflict. Sucks that you’re so drained, wish I could do something to help with that.
Well, to be fair, while I don’t keep up with TV, I still can keep up with my podcasts at work. So that moves me through the evening.
Have you ever watched Revolutionary Girl Utena?
It’s old but I just finished the show and then the movie and, wow, it was so damn amazing! I also recently watched Dallos which was very cool and timely!
Heard of it from folks here but, never checked it out so far.
Oh, please do! It’s such a beautiful anime. I’m not a huge anime head but it’s definitely up there among the best I’ve seen.
Which animes do you like?
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i would chat on discord, i’m a transfemme with some nerdy interests, but it’s mostly fringe shit like esoteric religion, religious studies more broadly, language, and stuff most people, even weirdos, find uninteresting, but it’s crack to my autism so vOv
That’s a cool thing to be interested in. I’ve always found looking at a religion’s history to be fascinating. Just seeing how it changes over time is cool to look at. Plus stuff like trying to reconstruct the life of the founders using historical-critical criteria. So far, this has just been restricted to the Abrahamic religions for me.
I’ve had religious experiences and I’m into the technical aspects of mystic traditions, things like divination - especially approaches that are complex and syatematic - looking for an understanding of these subjective experiences in my past and present, it has been humbling to let my guard down and approach these subjects without the biases and hostility most people approach them with, while also avoiding apologetics and polemics, and generally i am disinterested in material analysis - the confluence of religion and power is almost over explored and given far too much weight by most leftists for example, and i find those approaches boring at best and actively harmful at worst.
There is so much going on in esoteric philosophy that gets ignored because protestants and enlightenment philosophers hated mysticism so every philosophical tradition in their shadow inherits that hostility to its detriment - there are fascinating and brilliant things to be found and I really wish esotericism could have more mainstream penetration than it does
I’ve heard that each religion has its own mystic traditions. I’ve enjoyed hearing about them as part of a broad survey of history and comparative religion. In all honesty, I’ve felt myself become more agnostic over the years, as opposed to being sure that materialism has explained everything about the world. Maybe it’s not there yet. Maybe there are some new frontiers to be explored that the old teachers had some insight to. I try to keep a more open mind than I dId in the past.
That’s good! An open mind is fruitful, and anybody passing off certainty on these matters is selling you ideology or bullshit. I don’t have good answers, I try to stay restrained compared to a lot of woo-ey folks, because I genuinely think going too far into uncritical belief is thought terminating brain poison the same way materialist reductionism is. It’s a delicate balance, and a critical but open mind is key.
To keep it simple - lots of traditions have mysticism lurking somewhere near, but usually underneath the mainstream - in Islam, there are ‘Sufi’ traditions - in Judaism there is Merkavah/Hekhalot literature and Kabballah - Christianity is messy, and some ‘mainstream’ groups are openly mystical - my initial interest came from the fact I was deeply involved in charismatic/pentecostal christianity when i was in my late teens and early 20s - but there is also a (mostly medieval) mystical undercurrent to some movements aligned with catholicism. I think of the Beguines and other women who would end up burned as heretics, martyrs in my opinion, like Margueritte Porette. Within western esotericism, theosophy, hermeticism, etc. is a consistent mystical undercurrent of variable value - they’re all fascinating in their own right and understanding even one of these academically can be an extremely deep rabbit hole. Often times the philosophy underwriting something like Theurgy has shockingly mainstream roots - often times you can trace those movements back to greek philosophers that are often taught in a context with their mysticism stripped out - Plato gets kind of held up as this pre-enlightenment rationalist, but that’s pretty god damn far from the truth. The way he’s taught more or less deliberately omits this material at the undergrad level and below, so it’s not surprising most people aren’t aware, but it is a real tragedy.
Descartes - one of the progenitors of the modern scientific method - developed it via dream visitations lol. The mystical is often imminent where humanity makes large leaps forward in thought; it would not shock me to some day find out Marxism is no different.
I would be down to chat about religion and religious studies stuff too! I miss that about reddit, to be honest, I used to spend a lot of time on r/AcademicBiblical. It’s a very old and persistent interest of mine and was part of my studies in university. My main interest are usually Jewish and Christian religions because I know them best, and connect to them personally, but I’m interested in and studied many others. Always happy to chat about it. It’s nice to find comrades that are open to and interested in religion.
I don’t use Discord though.
I love the history aspect of religion especially. The founders of some of these religious traditions are fascinating when you try to look closely at what the lives of these mortals were like who’s ideas have won the adherence of billions today. How can I relate to and reflect on the contexts that these people lived through hundreds of years ago? The quest for the historical Jesus and Muhammad are two topics that especially fit her, though there are probably others who are interested in the lives of figures like the historical Buddha.
That’s cool! I like reading about the history of the development of religious thought and currents too. It helps me contextualize how we at least narrowly understand religious ideas. For example, how Judaism (and consequently Christianity and Islam) became monotheistic and how we now rationalize pre-monotheistic Judaism to suit the fundamentalist idea that it was always that way. I am religious but it helps understand how these ideas formed and its flaws and space for interpretation. But I kinda stopped reading too much into the historical X-person, for the most part so much is conjecture. Is there a book you like?
Any interest in eastern religion? I think Shinto is interesting and is a land of contrasts.
I’ve been dipping my toes - I recently got a copy of the Tao Te Ching and, given that it’s poetry, has been joyous to read. I’ve also been learning how to meditate and practice mindfulness via some Buddhist content creators, as well as some literature from the late Thich Nhat Hanh, whose books, “The Miracle of Mindfulness”, and “No Mud, No Lotus” affected me deeply.
The thing about meditation for me has been that it lets me step outside the storm of my own mind - I begin to step out of my thoughts, they become vivid hallucinations - the things that I experience as thoughts when I’m not meditating take on visual and auditory form - even hearing a fractional moment of it used to jar me out of my meditative trance, but lately i’ve been able to stay detached, and it becomes a window into my own internal processes.
I’ve been slowly reading from an English translation of the Quran, and at first i had a difficult time dealing with its accusatory tone and rampant misogyny, but I began to kind of understand the deeper points of its parables and the purpose of its structure, and it has begun to affect me as well.
I am not overly familiar with Shinto outside of a few bullet points on its cosmology, and the broadest overview of the belief structure and metaphysics. I feel pretty ignorant of the religious landscape of Japan more generally, and my understanding of ‘eastern’ religion outside of a narrow buddhist and taoist context is nil
Shinto is kinda like if pagan rituals in Europe had been allowed to grow alongside Christianity rather than being wiped out. It’s a nativist religion, and an animist religion. It’s also considered by many Japanese people to not be a religion, despite it totally being one. Shinto shrines are cool as hell. It’s a very long history, but to very briefly summarize, in Shinto certain trees, rocks, and other things are said to be little gods themselves and are worshiped as such. You go to the tree shrine to pray for success on entrance exams, the love shrine to pray for success in love, etc. Shinto has also been used by nationalists and one core component of Shinto is that the Emperor is supposedly a descendant of the most powerful god, Amaterasu. You can see how this might create problems and lead to catastrophic events like for example, WWII.
Anything in particular you want to chat about but haven’t had the opportunity to talk to people about?
Idk, I just feel a bit drained dealing with the usual people at work and their narrow view of the world. They can never see the big picture like we do here. The hot summer nags at me like that.
Coworker people or customer/client people?
Either way, i fucking feel you, comrade. The turbo libs at my job think theyre as far left as it’s gets but are still incredibly bigoted and selfish.
They adopt leftist sayings sometimes which pissed me off more than it should lol
Coworkers. I wish I saw customers more, I think seeing satisfied people in person keeps me more sane than seeing a list of names and a pile of junk food.
My coworkers are people who I get along with to varying degrees of success. With the exception of one homophobic black communist I worked with, the white ones tend to have the worst takes. Kinda felt hopeless listening to one lady talk about migrants a few days ago, and she’s one of the ladies I get along the best with.
I guess I feel crazy because I don’t have folks to talk to irl and my observations just build up until they come out as some kind of logorrhea.
I think I’ll just try to stay quiet at the next place I work at.
What is your fave sci-fi novel?
I’m going to sound basic for saying this but, I liked reading The Lost World, which I liked more than the movie adaptation. Idk, I reread it every so often as something I’m familiar with.
I can chat off and on for a bit. These figurines have some downtown between glue drying.
What kind of figurines did you make?
Malifaux, specifically the Sandeep box. After building so many goblin models with tweezers, this box is kind of a relief.
For tabletop gaming?
Yeah, never had the patience to play Warhammer since I’ve historically had issues setting aside 2 hours of my life for a single board game, but Malifaux is skirmish level, making it more my speed. You do any models/games?
No but, at times I wish I could if I had friends nearby. I wanted to get into the new Vampire that White Wolf is putting out. I like the aspect of designing new rpg characters that can have some historical research put into their backstory. It’s led me to already find some holes in the original research and story they did for the earlier editions of the game that they put out in the 90s. I loved hearing one of my favorite left commentators opine on his time playing the game when he was younger.
Love some World of Darkness. Never played a game myself, but many friends and family of mine have, so picked up some via osmosis. Problematic elements aside, I really liked the Highlander series from having people of different eras just chilling sometimes.
Ever played the World of Darkness tcg?
No, but I’ve heard about it. I browse the Wiki a lot to look at the back stories of the various NPCs that they wrote over the years. Plus I especially got into it after watching LA by Night. Kind of feels like what I imagine radio dramas used to be.
I’m trying to write an idea for a Malk character who’s supposed to be an NPC. The setting is in politics-heavy DC, so I make it a rule for myself to not have any famous Presidents as kindred npcs, only maybe one or two ones that nobody remembers. The way I kind of bend that a bit is with the Malk character, who’s derangement is that he has all the past Presidents as DID personalities. He got that way after trying and failing for years to play the President in a movie during the Golden Age of Hollywood, and his dedication to method acting resulting in that being his derangement upon being embraced. While he’s learned to control it somewhat, the different personalities can manifest themselves in response to strong emotional stimuli, like if he’s enraged, he turns into Andrew Jackson, of he’s feeling manic or excited, he turns into Teddy Roosevelt, or if he’s feeling depressed, he could be Franklin Pierce or Calvin Coolidge. I want him have a lot of comedic moments with another NPC I made, an actual former President, Martin Van Buren of clan Venture.
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Too hot and too humid.
