Jessica [she/they]

Thank you 🙏. The good news is that I have people in my life who support me - and a great therapist.

Healing is tough, but I am tougher!

Yey, thank you! ☺️😅

Trigger for CSA and SA

I’m a trans woman. My story is messed up.

The first girl’s clothes I ever wore were a pair of tiny tight-fitting shorts and top. I was made to put them on by my abuser. I was 11 years old.

It took decades for me to finally come out as a woman. My very first night out, I got dressed up. First time wearing a short skirt since my teens. I wasn’t prepared for the attention. I was sexually assaulted twice.

I still need to hear it’s not my fault. I know it intellectually, but I don’t really feel it. So I am grateful for the message of this post 🙏✨️

Easily-Startled Lettuce

(this tells you far too much about me)

Is this the same for largely mental problem solving tasks like computer programming? Nothing upsets me and destroys my productivity like my boss making me switch tasks when I already had my day planned! I typically have a sense of the sequence of coding tasks in my head, it sounds very similar!

It’s interesting and shows the power of names, because when I was growing up I only ever heard them called woodlice, and didn’t hear the name pillbug. So I kind of just always assumed they ate wooden structures and it was the rest of their diet that surprised me. Like I find them in fallen apples now that we have an apple tree and I didn’t expect that!

Closing as selecting the correct tool for the job is opinion-based

Whenever I see this, I know the answers will contain useful curated facts about each tool…

That’s very O_DIRECT of you

Another way in which I can relate to ADHD although my neurodivergence is PTSD. So many apparently overlapping symptoms I thought I had ADHD for a while.

The thing that makes me understand it’s trauma is that the dire need to please people, the hypersensitivity, and the way I freeze when I should be getting stuff done or going to bed, are all because my my brain was wired over several years of childhood to say I am in danger.

My brother does have ADHD and we’re eachothers best allies because we each have this thing that’s sort of shared but also completely different.

This, completely. Like does Stanley Tucci have toned muscles? Idk I was too busy listening to him talking passionately about Italian food

Some good news at last!!!

Already moved to Linux on a permanent basis and enjoying the better audio stability and routing for music production, so how much are they paying me to go back?

I started playing Exapunks, a Zachtronics game. I printed off the zine and everything. Just totally enjoying the retrofuturistic cyberpunk vibe.

I say retrofuturistic - cyberpunk now feels like an accurate commentary on the present day (lolsob).

The revolution will not be displayed on your refrigerator. The revolution will not have Terms of Service and a Privacy Notice. The revolution will not receive over the air updates.

The revolution will not be advertised.

The guy makes a lot of great points and we have a lot to figure out about present-day problems of overconsumption, AI slop, closed source, etc as a species.

LLMs are peak overconsumption, they’re everywhere I didn’t ask for it.

E.g. Zoom companion??? Why???

I did use to find the idea of an AGI singularity really interesting but current AI is already too destructive in some very miserable ways, and it feels like entertaining a futuristic scenario is in “cosy catastrophe” territory…

Tysm, that’s really helpful!

Getting that pen and paper boost but with digital information is goals.

I will perhaps start with one tool, give it a really good chance, and review the options after some use. I found with bullet journaling that while it was helpful right away, it was only with spending some time with it that I could evaluate it fairly.

I’m tempted to start with org mode but my emacs is soooo rusty lol

I have exactly one browser bookmark I use: the zoom link for my therapist.

Sums up my online world. Chaos and therapy!

Whereas, offline I have a neat bullet journal and I collect my thoughts and tasks in a way that feels natural.

Now I think about it, the difference between online and offline for me is stark. So I’ll be looking into the link tree systems you suggested - thanks!