good_girl [she/her, they/them]

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Joined 1 year ago
Cake day: August 15th, 2023
  • good_girl [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.nettotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread for the Week of 7/1 - 7/7English
    5·
    4 months ago
    spoiler

    I may be weird but personally I saw the ending as sorta optimistic even before I heard about the theory that the pink opaque is just starting a new season (S06E01 or w/e).

    The weight of suffocation by inaction is weighing down on Isabel/Owen enough that she finally externalizes it again for the first time since being told by Tera/Maddy about the Midnight Realm, screaming for help and yelling that she’s dying but nobody can hear her/relate. While it’s an incredibly isolating event it leads to her realizing that nobody else is going to help her so she has to help herself, she has to do something, she can’t just stagnate like she’s done for 40 years. I saw the scene in the bathroom as her finally confronting what Tera/Maddy said and seeing that, yeah, she was right. Owen’s body isn’t her body. What she felt before about her insides being ripped out and replaced was right.

    I feel that the very last scene was written to be as open to interpretation as possible with the knowledge of what had just unfolded but I saw it as the start of Isabel’s new beginning/escape.

    Personally I didn’t get the same emotional reaction to the movie that a lot of other people seemed to get, but that may be because of how I see myself and where I am in my own transition. However, I think that if this movie had come out before I started to transition I’d have a stronger reaction.

  • good_girl [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.nettotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread for the Week of 7/1 - 7/7
    9·
    4 months ago

    I can’t stress enough how much a wide toothed comb helped with keeping frizz somewhat manageable as another curly girly.

    Checkout the curlyhair comm on reddit, they usually have good recs.

    As for oil, as someone with high porosity 2B-2C sometimes 3A hair (leans closer to wavy), I had decent success with Jojoba oil as it’s very light and has similar properties to sebum. I also really like using Tsubaki Oil and though I’m not entirely sure it’s doing anything for my frizz, it leaves my hair incredibly soft.

    Also i find tying my hair up in a bun overnight keeps it more manageable in the morning.

  • good_girl [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.nettotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread for the Week of 6/24 - 6/30 PRIDE EDITION FOUREnglish
    3·
    4 months ago

    Actually you don’t have to tell doctors anything. Just keep getting him to do labs every few months until you’re happy with the numbers.

    I want to do this but I have to rely on him to keep my prescription refills up. I definitely could do this if i switch to DIY though.

    This doesn’t make any sense to me. Why would the injections be different if you did them in different place?

    He said it was to make sure I’m using the correct technique for injection but my partner has been doing them for me and she’s had actual classes for injection techniques (?) so I dunno what his problem is.

  • good_girl [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.nettotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread for the Week of 6/24 - 6/30 PRIDE EDITION FOUREnglish
    11·
    4 months ago

    finally got around to having blood work done again to check my levels, I feel like they’re pretty low for my last dose to be 1 week ago.

    Anyway I asked my endo to (officially) up my dosage frequency from once every two weeks to at least once a week, and I also asked him if we could up my dose (4mg).

    He agreed to increase my frequency but not my dose.

    I didn’t tell him i’d already switched to once a week but now I’m trying to convince him to up my dose as well, hopefully he agrees otherwise I’m going to have to awkwardly tell him I’d been doing once a week doses for the last 1.5 months.

    edit: nevermind he responded quickly basically saying not for 3-4 weeks at least, and if my levels don’t improve i’ll have to go in to get shots instead of doing it at home (which i hate because I have to make time away from work).

  • good_girl [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.nettotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread for the Week of 6/24 - 6/30 PRIDE EDITION FOUREnglish
    12·
    4 months ago

    Got around to watching I Saw the TV Glow on Saturday night.

    I loved the movie, but like it wasn’t as emotionally devastating as I’d hoped it would be. Maybe I’m just busted? Idk like I definitely connected with the film on a lot of its parts/aspects. There were even certain parts of the film where I already knew what the main character was going to say before it was said.

    spoiler

    The part on the bleachers where Tera/Maddy was asking Isabel about her sexuality hit a little too close and I literally answered “I don’t know” out loud before Isabel did.

    Idk maybe I’m more emotionally locked up than I thought or maybe my expectations were too high or maybe I was just too ready to be analytical instead of just taking the movie as it comes.

    I’ll re-watch it again, probably soon. I’ll definitely remember it as one of my favorite movies, I identify far too personally with the text for it to not be; I just wanted to share the connection with it that many trans people are saying they felt with it, and I’m a little disheartened that I feel like I didn’t connect in the same way that some people did.

  • good_girl [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.nettotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread for the Week of 6/17 - 6/23 PRIDE EDITION THREEEnglish
    12·
    5 months ago

    Settling into my new place and enjoying our backyard that the previous tenants turned into a little veggie field.

    Put myself together a cute little gardening outfit from the clearance aisle (jeans were too short but otherwise perfect). My partner was gassing me up and even I sorta thought i looked cute despite not shaving for a few days.

    Unfortunately my back is a fuck and I can’t work for longer than an hour or two.

    dysphoria talk

    The outfit was really super cute but god I’m realizing exactly how fucking much i hate my shoulders and my upper body in general. I think it’s partially because I have such messed up posture, my upper body is just so fucking wide I can’t stand it.

    Also the lower half of my face is too goddamn wide. I think from a distance or in the mirror it’s not too bad but seeing myself in photos i feel so shitty, I think it’s making me really want to try for FFS asap, but I can’t afford to take time off to heal so It’s not really accessible until I get sorta financially stable.

    The silver lining is that my eyes and lashes are so goddamn pretty actually. When I have my bangs properly styled I really like my face from the nose up. It’s the one thing keeping me going right now.