i was just last week ranting about how horrible the denver airport is oh how i loathe it so much. plane travel is already terrible but to have to follow it up with navigating this demonic labyrinth makes me completely believe all the rumors about the airport being a shrine to Satan
slaps hood of registration page you can fit so many new usernames in this bad boy
business is all about who you know and who knows you. there are 50 plumbers in the area, and while most of them will certainly do a good job, i know josh the plumber, they were nice to me that one time, so i’m going to contract his company to do our plumbing work. it’s not more complicated than that.
it’s never been something i’ve enjoyed, but after years of being forced to engage for the sake of “advancing” my “career” 
i’ve managed to create a facade i employ while networking, where i play the role of what the average “doer of this specific thing” is in the eyes of the average person. and at least for my industry, it works way too well, as if the entire concept is just a joke and only a vessel for patronage and nepotism.
a spirit prison kind of implies heaven’s a lil fashy
covid broke me. i constantly am grappling with how many people have left us since 2020. how they should still be here. how many more we will lose. the rest of us that very well could suffer from a shorter, needlessly challenging life. all because a small group of selfish removed couldn’t sacrifice a month or two in quarantine.
maybe they just didn’t understand the risk. for someone not informed i could see them brushing it off. i’m not sure who to blame exactly. i dont understand enough about humanity and the world to say definitively. was it the high priests of capital? the social fascists that refused to cancel their fancy parties? what about the fundamentalists that believe covid is a sign of the impending end of the world and thus hastened it forward? or is it me, who after spending the last 3 years avoiding covid, got infected because i just had to go see that show?
outside of a miracle cure and effective treatment for long covid, i have a hard time seeing things improving for humanity in my lifetime. anyone who has foresight seems to be on the same page. all talking about it does seem to do is depress the people around me - even those i know who agree. society seems to be warping and distorting rapidly to the point where i believe the average human life could become completely and unrecognizably cruel within a generation or two.