TheSpectreOfGay [he/him, she/her]

i would love to know how a predictive language models are gonna help solve climate change but okay

thank u comrade

i learned from another mutual today they had outed themselves as being abusive to them by accident, and r now suffering the repercussions of most of our mutual friends being grossed out by their actions, so im back to

for real, a friend of mine warned me that they seemed like the kinda person who’d slander me to mutual friends, and i was like “nah they’ll probably just vent about it, im doing that too so it’s fine”

nope, just completely trying to convince people im some kinda horrible person and accidentally outing themselves as super abusive to multiple people in the process

mutual friend sent me what my ex said to them after i cut contact with them and ohhhh man

apparently i am not of sound mind for thinking “good luck finding someone who can act perfectly forever” was uh, basically saying no one can love me. also apparently i am not friends with my friends because i can only get along with people who don’t have a spine… so sorry everyone here apparently u dont have spines i hope u get new ones soon that must be uncomfortable 😔

they also said i was trans misogynist cos i got uh… upset/scared at them throwing tantrums and literally screaming at me constantly, so i apparently equate aggression = masculine = dangerous man. which is … an interesting thing to presume, i think. while we were dating they made weird comments about all trans AFAB guys being shitty, which was, you know, not good, since i am that.

i miss when trump was in office during covid. at least libs pretended to care back then.

hope you feel better soon

i had to make multiple reminders to take mine cos im so forgetful

Giving nobles magic powers. Especially when people born as commoners get elevated in class due to having magic ability or something. Endorsing the ruling class as being better than everyone else inherently and therefore having a right to rule over them sucks and reinforces meritocratic ideas in the reader.

im a NEET for now bc i can’t find a fucking job

my dog barks at me when i cry so it’s a hard decision

yea, my field is both oversaturated and very competitive

im taking a break for now cos im losing my sanity lol

congrats!

the fucked up thing is that 100 applications is actually a really low amount for an offer. i probably get an interview every 400.

green is my favourite colour

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go play in stars and time it’s good

i mean, yea

not cos he’s good, but 90% of the criticism i hear about him offline is “he’s letting people immigrate in and that’s why the housing prices r so bad and that’s why there’s so much unemployment”

has trudeau done a particularly good job like this article is saying? no lmao, obviously. but a lotta people use their frustration with him to just be racist

yea, i get really brainwormy about my friends not caring about me enough as their romantic partners. doesn’t help that every single fucking time a friend of mine gets a romantic partner they suddenly never want to spend any time with me anymore. cos it’s totally normalized in society that you should prioritize romantic partners so heavily, ugh.

im ace but not aro, and i’ve stayed in toxic relationships for way too long just because of the fear of not being important to anyone if im not in a relationship

i fucking hate kink at pride discourse

im sex repulsed and kink doesn’t trigger it at all, but you know what does? like every fucking pop song with explicit mentions to straight sex. or action movies randomly shoving a hyper male-gazey sex scene in. why the fuck is a leather harness considered too taboo but those are totally normally

I like Shadows House a lot

It’s a neat mystery thing and all the characters are very lovable and supportive of each other. Also the lack of fanservice is nice cos I can’t stand that shit.

i’ve quit a job that would have made me kill myself before. it’s really scary and i felt guilty for having to do so, since so many people have it worse. but no one deserves to be exploited like that, and im proud of you for putting your health first since you are able to

i bought a cookie and my friend took a bite and said “under communism u have to share all ur cookies” so i dunno if i can do this anymore

So I haven’t even updated my resume or applied for jobs, for a ton of reasons. Partly it’s because I am unemployable, like I have maybe the one reference from my supervisor at my previous job, that is it. I worked there like six years so Idk, what am I supposed to do?

Have your friends lie about having worked with you. Though I imagine some old coworkers wouldn’t mind doing that as well.

But yea, that’s my only advice, I feel you comrade. I gave up searching for now because of horrible health issues I’m trying to address. Shit’s rough out there.