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Cake day: August 6th, 2024

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  • During the pandemic, discord has been a lifeline for me and I did not find alternatives that had a specific feature that may appear irrelevant but that I found deeply comforting: When people are hanging out in a vocal channel, you can see them. It was not much, but it was the closest we had to going to university and seeing groups of friends just chilling together.

    There are many other platforms for text and vocal chats, but this is a feature I am still looking for.

    Prove me wrong !








  • A few years ago I would have been strongly against it. But now I believe it’s a must. But it is easy to say we need an army of europe that will help with Ukraines defense when I wont me doing the military stuff. I would certainly not want to serve in an army. I am doing a year-long civil service to avoid the mandatory military service in switzerland. How many europeans are willing to serve to defend europe’s borders?






  • Crying in bed because I wasn’t a girl should have been a definite tell :) But it always went better at some point before it became impossible to hold back so I never sought help. My teens were loops of doubts, then certainty but too scared to talk.

    In my later adolescence I realised I (or started to) liked guys, and I was able to to feel better about being one. And I had a few adventures with guys as a guy which felt great and I thus believed that my trans phase had passed, for a few years.

    During that time I often described myself as “I don’t really care/I could be either, but people say I’m a guy so ok” but I still had a little (repressed?) desire to be seen as a girl. And I was weirdly emotional about being treated as a guy by laws that differentiate between men and women (military service/retirement age)

    Then I had to work as a kitchen assistant, mostly with women, and being treated as a non-woman by them felt really bad. (Previously I was in an environment that didn’t really feel gendered) And the outfit made me look vaguely feminine and I liked it and awoke my desires to be seen as a girl and experiment with clothing and nail polish.

    As I experimented, it completely shattered my egg, I slowly came out to friends, and 14 days ago, started HRT!