Yea I felt the same way and spent the $30 bucks on Xbox to play it early. I really think this game is a huge “Your mileage may vary”.
If you have a PC I would look into a gamepass trial or something to try it out before buying it. Or like someone said buying it on steam and then refunding if it’s not your thing.
I didn’t have super high expectations but honestly it’s really solid and it does have its flaws that are sometimes in your face, but I’ve had a lot of highs so far when playing too. If you’ve played a Bethesda game before, you can expect what you’re getting into.
Eh, I really didn’t think about it too much, but not to spoil anything, but that decision does come back up later with consequences so it makes sense.
But also, when has Bethesda had great writing? This has def been the biggest gripe with them for a long time now, and it’s def not the strongest point of the game lmao