Imnecomrade [none/use name]

Imnecomrade - pronounced “I am any comrade”

Techie, hippie, commie nerd

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  • The narcissistic misogynist also imposed a cruel list to his first wife:

    CONDITIONS

    A. You will make sure:

    1. that my clothes and laundry are kept in good order;
    2. that I will receive my three meals regularly in my room;
    3. that my bedroom and study are kept neat, and especially that my desk is left for my use only.

    B. You will renounce all personal relations with me insofar as they are not completely necessary for social reasons. Specifically, You will forego:

    1. my sitting at home with you;
    2. my going out or travelling with you.

    C. You will obey the following points in your relations with me:

    1. you will not expect any intimacy from me, nor will you reproach me in any way;
    2. you will stop talking to me if I request it;
    3. you will leave my bedroom or study immediately without protest if I request it.

    D. You will undertake not to belittle me in front of our children, either through words or behavior.







  • i’m now effectively blacklisted in my industry in my area, because my current country operates almost entirely off nepotism hires, and word gets around. i want to switch careers, but to get work placement support, they want me to commit to going back, and i’ve told, kindly and not so kindly, ‘no’.

    If you are not from the United States, I suspect the majority of an employed population being hired by nepotism is a common theme in most Western/capitalist countries.

    I have the same issue here. I have been a contractor for two years working as an IT person that has to support developers, engineers, architects, etc. that use ChatGPT to do their work without any modification, meanwhile I have more experience with scripting, programming, git, etc. than most of the company. We keep losing more IT people and rarely recover our numbers. Our manpower is less than half of the required capacity necessary to maintain the infrastructure of the company. After a few years since the last person was hired, we are getting another higher level manager, because we obviously needed another person to listen to meetings and not more IT members on the floor to meet the company’s ridiculous demands.

    There’s multiple recent contractors that have taken a major pay cut to work here, and they absolutely hate it here because of how moronic most of the company is. The company is the epitome of Idiocracy. I have to teach people basic life activities, meanwhile higher level IT teams are just circlejerk silos that have worse computer literacy than some of our normal users.

    If I search for positions online, there are mostly IT manager positions. I can see 100s of people across the state trying to get an IT job.

    Most of the full-time people that work at my job have no outside experience, and most people only attain positions at the company either by selling their soul working many years as a contractor (if they are lucky) or through nepotism.

    I feel so much dread and hopelessness. I have to pull off herculean tasks because I have only managed to acquire work in positions where I am expected to work 3 jobs with less than a skeleton crew for support.







  • To be clear, my childhood wasn’t severely traumatic, but stressful enough that I had forgotten most of my childhood.

    I have been diagnosed with Autism and ADHD at an early age. Of course, the doctors said at that time that I would never be able to experience any emotion besides anger and sadness for my entire life, so I would be careful with the information you give to them and try to find a good psychologist/psychiatrist. I have had to jump between multiple as often they were on a grift to get me on a particular med that didn’t work for me. This was during the med change after dropping out of college, but I had other doctors before that wanted to use me for profit when I was younger. Others were just backwards and refused to update themselves in their profession.

    I have been on the max dose on methylphenidate since middle school. It does work for me, but I have taken it so long that I believe the effects are not enough to overcome my severe burnout. When I quit my job, I am considering going off meds for a week and sleeping all day. When I have had breaks with my stimulant, its effects have improved again for another period of time until the burnout overcomes it again.

    I went on antidepressants for situational depression after dropping out of school, and then I continued going through a med change and ended up back on a stimulant again, but this time Vyvanse. It’s effects were the same on me, but I believe I felt a bit weird (tingly in the brain?), so I think the side effects were worse on me. I went back to methylphenidate because I was poor and it was cheaper at the time. Going back on stimulants after around a year made me feel much more functional again.

    I have also been drinking a lot of caffeine on top of my stimulants, sometimes even 600-1000 mg, because I have been struggling to do work. Once I drink around 900+ mg, I get a terrible headache and stomach ache, so I try to avoid that range.

    Rant incoming

    I haven’t been able to take a vacation for so long, and I feel a 6 month vacation would be necessary for me to recover.

    A lot of the people in my job are quitting and moving to other positions as my workplace, a $200 billion indie company, refuses to invest in more IT people even though they spent millions on an IT audit only to find out we are more than 50% understaffed, meaning we would have to over double our IT team, including contractors. My coworkers say one day we are going to be all just contractors.

    Meanwhile we have problematic higher-level IT teams that treat production as the testing environment and constantly break things. They’re a bunch of dinosaurs that were grandfathered in to higher positions and have no experience outside of the company, thus they are a bunch of egotistical morons that refuse to hold themselves accountable or admit they made a mistake, turning every email that could have been 5 minutes to resolve a user’s issue to an hour long argument. They also make decisions such as “let’s delete Visual C++ off of everyone’s computers because it is a sEcUrItY vUlErNaBiLiTy!1!”, and then everyone’s softphone stops working, which I called way beforehand and no one listened to me.

    A script was requested to disable settings on a network adapter that have been causing disconnects and reconnects in our environment, and an old contractor in our team that was hired to be in the networking team with no experience mentioned they attempted a small script. I then added to the email that I already have an improved version already in production to run on new machines, and they congratulated the networking guy, circlejerked each other exclaiming how well they are communicating, meanwhile completely ignoring me.

    These glorious geniuses also use ChatGPT (prohibited at our workplace) to create scripts without any modification to match our environment needs. We have also had scripts from the higher level IT teams that are completely broken and that have been running in our environment. I didn’t even know PowerShell starting my job, but I managed to quickly learn to write scripts at a professional level and had to fix all of these broken scripts made by our lovely Newtons who had a frozen apple fall on each of their heads.

    The company also uses the worse software ever because they buy everything a shell company tries to sell them. Meanwhile they are harping on us regarding tickets and making every project a number one priority, so honestly what’s a priority at this point.

    I honestly feel the work I have to do would be very difficult for even neurotypicals, and it’s amplified due my neurodivergence and ongoing, worsening burnout. I’m going back to college next year in a last ditch effort to turn my life around.

    I have been going very late to my job, and I use the restroom a lot out of anxiety and stress. It’s a 35+ min drive to work and a 45+ min back home, and it absolutely sucks. I think I have managed to keep my job as I have made a lot of PowerShell scripts that have helped the company immensely, which I even received a large pay raise and multiple gift cards for. I feel as I have always relied on my ability to do work at a perfectionist quality to make up for my shortcomings.

    I went on Jornay during my current job, which seemed to help me get to work on time a little easier, but I had to go back to my old meds because it was very expensive, and it would really suck when I forgot to take it the previous night.