Ceres [she/her]
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9·6 months agomental health stuff
Ive thought like this for a while and still mostly do, but my (new?) instincts have dragged me further along transition at every step, so I trust in that small part of my brain as something i can refer to (to myself or others) as the innate knowledge of my identity. Its still just one part of what feels like multiple layers of subconscious pitted against each other, but its the only one that doesn’t feel like a choice to trust in, unlike the ones telling me that i feel worse as I transition. Those I blame on the depersonalization fading and making me actually feel the bad but mundane mental health issues that have been dormant ugh.
7·6 months agomy favourite weather is when its about to rain, something about it is energizing
2·6 months agogender gear strive
ive been meaning to give that a try, especially if its finally time to get off twitter, but don’t know how to begin searching so which ones do you recommend? (or can dm)
in some ways im feeling more like a teenager than my first puberty where i was kinda just a reserved blank slate, have been finding myself more risk-prone and wanting to hide in my room than ever lol
I saw GayBot comment that there was another vegan struggle session and got excited to post in the trenches
but I think that was a ruse cause I didnt see any threads about it anywhere. devastating
11·7 months agobought darkest dungeon (1) cause it was $3 and its been great, no deaths yet so overconfidence will definitely be my slow and insidious killer
2·7 months agohaven’t played any of the games or watched the show unfortunately, but great to hear its good and see friends excited
a beacon in the night I can raise my eyes to earthshine
16·7 months agosite down for the eclipse making sure we log off and see the event o7
also i think my opsec instinct is overtrained cause after hitting post I briefly went “oh no is it personal info to mention i have a maternal grandma” lol
i think im starting to look like my maternal grandma which is equally
been having an interesting experience where my bisexuality helps clarify gender stuff, and understanding my gender helps being bi finally click for me, in a reciprocal way. For example ill watch something and seeing a cool confident fem character alongside a cool confident masc character will cause clear gender envy for the former and a now-comfortable attraction to the later, such that everything finally makes sense.
most recently happened while watching this video lol https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qve_9Ut05qk
7·8 months agowhen making my account i checked the available planets, and there is an account name for Venus (who is fairly active), Mars (not very active), and Mercury (last post 4 years ago), but none of them have a picture of the planet as profile picture smh.
also ‘obscure’
(but true)
i used 10mg/wk for a few months and felt like the peaks/troughs were a bit too rough, but after talking with doctor I recently swapped to 5mg twice a week and have felt better, likely because Valerate has a somewhat short half-life. Really wish the guidelines online weren’t just vaguely “Estradiol injected” and accounted for the compound type. I second checking out transfemscience.org as mentioned