Because for many of us it’s lifesaving. I still really want it but I want it less than I did before since HRT has shrunk my penis substantially, before I literally wanted to cut my penis off and I fantasized a lot about doing it. I had friends who actually did, and they still ended up killing themselves bc of it. Bottom surgery saves lives.
I never had this experience even back when I started, and I’m DIY, don’t get blood tests either so I just have to be careful. And no I won’t go the official way, because where I am they expect me to degrade myself and prove I am a “real woman” because people totally take estrogen recreationally when they aren’t really women 🙄. I didn’t go out as a “man in a dress” because that would’ve just given me dysphoria, probably what they wanted, so DIY it is for me, yay 😒.