Been on Vyvanse 40mg for a few months now and am loving life. I’m more productive, happier, can focus better, eating less, etc.
I can’t help but feel like ADHD meds are like a deal with the devil. I can either have my days drag on, especially the boring parts, and feel every second pass. Or… I can take meds and have the boring parts go by quickly, feel productive, but also have the enjoyable moments that I want to savor, whisked away into the past, leaving me wondering “where the hell did my day go?”
Does anyone else feel like this?
Thanks for your advice! Since getting diagnosed and being more aware of how ADHD brains work, at least I’ve become better at identifying what makes me frustrated or mad.
Often, it’s the triggers adding up by the end of the day, especially noise and visual commotion drain me. I can control my frustration most of the time (outwardly) but may be grinding my teeth or swearing under my breath, even knowing I am overreacting. I’ve had outbursts though and while only verbal, I feel like shit lashing out at loved ones over nothing. It’s like know I’m overreacting but I can’t stop myself.
I am trying to take control though, as you suggested. I got some Loop earplugs and NC headphones last year and have been using them daily when I know I’ll be in a stressful situation. My partner knows how I get stressed and doesn’t mind if I pop in the Loops, and I’ve been open about when I start feeling overwhelmed. It’s helped a good bit with the mental drain but meds have been especially helpful for my mood in the evenings.
Sorry for the wall of text! Adhd made me do it.