I’ve had severe demand avoidance my whole life. If people interrupt me or keep trying to get my attention without considerable breaks, I get quite overwhelmed. I mean that I can easily go into a complete meltdown if someone continues to interrupt me after I’ve asked them to please stop, even if their interruption is seemingly helpful and selfless.

I seriously broke up with a girl that loved the hell out of me because she just couldn’t stop interrupting me when I was engaged in something. I completely blocked another friend I had for ~17 years after going on an international trip with him because after asking him repeatedly to please stop blurting out every single idea he has, to save them until I seem like I want to hear it. Nope, he just couldn’t do that. It is just completely unbearable for me, and after leaving the trip on my own earlier than planned, I blocked all opportunities for him to contact me. I would be happy to never hear from or of him ever again. That’s how much I cannot tolerate demands.

Aside from that, the best part of my day is when I go to bed to lie down for the night. It is my safe place where I know no one will interrupt me because everyone is asleep. This happens even if I live alone.

Unfortunately, the way this plays out is that I end up isolating myself and have pretty bad sleep issues since I basically stay in bed awake for hours at night. It’s like my body wakes up once I hit the bed, which is terrible for sleep hygiene. Last night, I went to best at midnight and didn’t fall asleep until 5am, so I’m exhausted-tired today.

I’m working with a therapist to develop a social circle that is healthier for me, so that’s on the horizon…hopefully. When I review my life, my favorite relationships are ones where I just co-exist with someone in the same space without much direct verbal interaction. I enjoy touch and sharing, but not if they talk a lot. And if they do talk a lot, I prefer if they keep the talking consolidated rather than spreading it out throughout the day. I can tolerate 2 hour conversations wayyy better than 6 hours of talking for 5 mins repeatedly.

Any other suggestions on how to manage this?

  • BOMBS@lemmy.worldOPM
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    1 year ago

    Thanks! I’m trying 🤷‍♂️

    Those are great questions!

    Regarding the mechanism, I’m writing out my real-time thought process to hopefully get me some insight. I’m trying to understand myself better since I’ve accepted my autistic traits early this year and started learning about it. Until then, I would convince myself that I was too sensitive/too much and needed to figure a way around that, which led to unhealthy coping strategies that eventually failed anyway. They just delayed the inevitable.

    The sensitivity seems to fall under a limited amount of mental energy that I can to dedicate to others. I really need time to let my mind be free in order to recharge. That’s not to say that all social interaction is exhausting. Far from it. I also need the ability to help others in order to feel happy with myself. I think I need to figure out my healthy balance and implement it.

    As far as sign language, I don’t know it, so I’m assuming it would be more taxing at first. However, once I become fluent, I could see it being less taxing than verbal communication just because it is so audibly quiet. Loud noises seem to be more intense for me than other people.

    A barrage of text would depend on my mental resources and the topic. If I’m out of social energy for the day, then I might just ignore them. However, this adds to their energy consumption when I do address them because I will feel guilty for ignoring them. If the topic is something I am interested in or helping someone, then I tend to be excited to engage.

    While thinking this through, I thought of what is quite exhausting for me. That is when people are unnecessarily antagonistic. So baiting, contrarianism, dismissiveness, manipulation, outright deception, etc. I have a very low tolerance for that.

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      1 year ago

      I’m also new to this game. It’s been a strange few years and it still feels like barely scratching the surface. I remember complaining about the noise and bustle in the open office on multiple occasions, only to be met with blank stares. At some point I realised that the common denominator was my perception, that was a turning point. Since then I treat a quiet workspace as an inviolable requirement and it’s made a huge difference to productivity. I have limited capacity for social interaction and small talk but since accepting that is the way I am, it’s not a problem. I don’t care if my unread email piles up, if people want to talk they will find me. It used to be a source of anxiety but now I just let people know they won’t get a quick response and people are fine with it.

      Meditation has been a game changer, huge difference for anxiety and general happiness. I think we can be happy if we find our way and our people. Part of that is letting go of the things that hold us back.