I’ve never thought about it until now, the only times when I ever felt fulfilled is when I’m doing something for others and helping them achieve their goals. I myself have goals and dreams of my own but I’ve never feel motivated to work towards them for myself, it just feels like a boring chore.
And thanks to that, my life is an absolute mess now, I know what I should have done for my own good but I just couldn’t find the will to do it without someone forces me, and sometimes even that doesn’t work.
I’m not saying I’m a good person, I’m anything but a saint, I might enjoy helping others but for some I just don’t give a damn.
I’m sorry to say this but, you must always put yourself first. You are responsible for everything that is happening to you. You have so much time for others but can’t have time for yourself?
Do the things that make you happy, revisit some old hobbies, try working out, going outside for a run and gardening! Immersing yourself with nature really helps inside out.