I’m not engaged because the company I’m in keeps firing everyone and I spend every day wondering if it is me or someone I rely on who is next. I also got in right as the last of the small company culture was getting strangled by big corp nonsense so I’ve basically just been adjusting from one game plan to the next every month for the last couple years, while listening to what’s left of the old guard talk about how much better everything used to be. I spend more time in meetings about all the different bureaucracies I have to engage in than I do working on anything meaningful